speechless.

Ever get that feeling, that the one person who you think won't EVER hurt you does?
kinda ironic, the one person who claims they would do anything and everything for you all of a sudden out of the blue just stops talking to you, and when they were talking to you treats you like total crap? but yet they say you are their best friend?... the feeling, is undescribable, it hurts more then you could ever imagine, me and my best friend, or who knows so called best friend Tanya, have been best friends for for 10 years, close to 11. I have always been there for her when she neeeded someone the most, through thick and thin... and never done anything to EVER make her upset with me or hate me nothing, her parent's go away for a month and take her kids with them to honduras, and all of a sudden I'm invisible, I don't matter and I don't have feelings, starts treating me like total crap when I am suppose to be her BEST FRIEND and not to mention the GOD MOTHER TO HER DAUGHTER!, how someone could do something like that is beyond me, then now because of our friend Stephanie firing her from work for not showing up for a shift for the 2nd time in a week now she's not talkin to me at all, sent her text messages and no answer, call her no answer, block my number and she'll answer but then the 2nd I say something she acts like she can't hear me "Hello" and keeps yelling it into the phone. part of me is telling myself that she isn't worth the pain, and it isn't worth crying over [and yes i will admit i have] more then once too... but the feeling of knowing your BEST FRIEND who u have done nothin but ever been there for is not talking to you or hates you for something you never did and willing to throw a 10yr friendship down the drain kinda hurts, it hurts even more knowing that she asked me to be the god mother to her daughter and now because of how she's treating me and not talking to me and doesn't even give a crap about losing my friendship that I won't get to be a part of Eilynn's life, and be there for her, she did nothing and doesn't deserve it.

what hurts me even more then anything is knowing she cares more about playing all these guys [because they have money, and throw it away like its nothin] then she does about the one person who would do anything for her, the one person who would never wanna ever see her or her kids hurt or upset. I can't take this feeling anymore!!!!! I wish it would stop.